it is okay to have something to say

ok, here me out, idk how long this is gonna be, but I need to address this.

If you don't know me, I am a shy person, I don't talk much if it's not needed. It's just that I don't like to express my feelings, even tho I am a very sensitive person (my zodiac sign is pisces, so you can kinda guess). Since high school started, things that I was used to, completely changed, I had to communicate, and to colaborate with my other classmates, which I don't have a problem with, I really love all of them, but when it comes to being active in class it is really hard for me to do it. I have anxiety when it comes to talking in public, and from previous experiences, I am scared to answer to a question if I am not sure of my answer .

People like me don't want to disappoint others, we want to help people even if it means to put our needs aside. And maybe you can relate with my story. You see, there are some persons in our lives who we don't want to disappoint, such as family members, friends, teachers and many others. It's just that, whenever I want to answer in class or to express my opinion, something in my brain stops me, makes me feel embarrassed for my answer and this is mostly because I frequently compare myself with others. I hear all the of great answers, that are very well structured and then I think about my answer: bland and pointless, or this is how I see it.

It is really hard nowadays to speak as a teenager mostly because we are our BIGGEST judge. We expect more and more from ourselves thinking "it's the only way to be included in the society". Maybe, if you are in this situation, you told yourself this multiple times: "I AM TIRED". I did, I still do it, sometimes when my classes are over, I start crying because I think I am nothing compared to my classmates. And it's okay, it's okay to cry, to be frustrated, but NEVER NEVER judge yourself for "not being enough". Keep this in mind: "I am doing my best, if they don't like it, it is there problem, not mine". Everyone has his own way to learn, speak, be, etc. You are you, and it's THE BEST THING EVER. Don't be afraid for the fact that they will not like what you're saying, just say it, express your opinion, be you, try to find something good in everything because this life is too short for us to be scared of everything.

I know it is easy to give advices, I am still fighting to overcome this fear, but I know better days are coming, just hang in there. it is okay to have something to say...